Fair Warning: This blog is more personal than most. It's sort of how I worked through these emotions and found my way back to writer sanity... Sort of... Anyway, UPDATE.
So I know I haven't blogged in a while, but I've been so busy lately.
Finishing my novel.
That's right! ...Sort of.
I'll probably have to do some more editing after my beta readers hit me with their best shot, but for now, it feels pretty final.
Here are a couple posts from Twitter in case you missed them:
I've been listening to music (such as "Like A Ray" by Ki: Theory and "Recover" by Chvrches), and just soaking it in. This feeling of finality. This joy and pride and excitement and euphoria running through me like a surge of electricity... Could be partly from the music, but it's definitely related to the novel. I know that. It might sound crazy, but I rarely work on this novel without crying tears of joy, for some reason. So, that's a good sign... Right?
(Also, it seems my music taste has changed and/or expanded through writing this novel, but that's another story for another blog)...
Even though it isn't over, and I'm still not published (probably won't be for a while yet), it feels like I'm on the edge of a cliff, about to jump. I feel like once I jump, I just might fly, but not knowing what's next makes it feel like I could fall too.
I'm sure seasoned authors would agree that finishing that first novel is scary. But then they would probably tell me that it's also worth it. They would probably tell me that even though I can't see through the fog of uncertainty in front of me, I just need to jump, and hope for the best. because, like I said in this guest blog, "Finish that book, get it out there, and spread your wings. It's the only way to know if you can fly."
So, with both excitement and fear gripping my racing heart, I'm taking my own advice and the advice of my fellow writers, and jumping blindly off of this cliff that is the threshold between the present and the future. If you don't hear from me, I didn't make it...
LOL, JK, you'll hear from me.
Hopefully soon. ;)